But it's kinda dumb.  Maybe a little immature, but I don't feel like I'm that old, and I sure as hell don't look it.  Hah, I can't think of anyone back home who wouldn't think it's awesome.  I'm not gonna crash it, (well, not when anyone's looking)! 

I ordered a t-board!! I don't even know if they work outside of this city, but hell if I care, I'm gonna zoom to work and maybe back (depending on what I do after work, of course)!  And next, I wanna get a fish tank.  I don't want a lot of fish, just one pretty one.  Depending on how much the tank and food will cost, I'll either get a really fancy fighting fish or a small eel-kind of thing. 

...Hahaha, or maybe I'll catch something neat when we go fishing, Vahn.

Whatever I do end up getting, I know just what I'll name it.

It's not too bad a job, methinks.  I get to wear a snazzy little fake tux, cheat, an' grin, and charm.  The one thing I don't like is how a blackjack dealer pretty much is stuck in one place all night.  Being a guidance counselor was nice, but it felt a little awkward being so... wholesome. 

And drinks are on the house! It's a party kind of atmosphere, but I think that's good for a little variety.  Plus, now I know all the gambling tricks.  This is more educational than working in a school! It's all business though, at the end of the night.

That all aside, I'm really sick of being so stationary.  In every sense.  I need to be outdoors more, exercise a little more.  Anyone want a work out/training partner?  (I'm not sure what you could "train" for out here, but eh well.)

I don't mind a little change.  I don't mind a lot of change. 

In fact, I'm happy to change most things, as long as they're not my mortality status.  

I think I was getting too comfortable.  Palamedes was starting to look like a home. Ugh.  The new place is shiny as hell.  It's completely foreign to me.  I like that.  I don't think I'll get bored here.

I wonder what I'll be up to next.

I had a dream last night, and it made me long for home.  And tis a home without a fixed place; I take my residence in freedom.

The breeze is different on the sea.  I wonder if it's changed without me... I've changed without it.

Updating from school.  Man, am I glad no students are coming in this morning.  My head is...throbbing.  My alarm clock rung like death.  If we were at sea, I would've sobered up faster, but the bad weather here just makes it hurt worse...

Haven't had a hangover in years.  Ugh.  I hate being landlocked.  In a ship, you're stuck in the middle of the ocean, and if something, anything goes wrong, you'll end up at the bottom of the ocean.  As vulnerable as that might sound, I feel somehow weaker for the lack of nautical living.  Maybe it's because here, I don't have anything to fight for; I don't have any way to struggle.  It's the same way I felt in my stint as a regent -- without having anything to quest for, I start to lose my strength.

I think I'm gonna start working out to make up for it.  I should get an activity partner or something.  That dating service might be promising. 

Maybe that mandatory date thing will prove useful.  Who is this 'Vahn' person anyway?  I oughta contact them. Or you contact me! A four hour date can't be horrible.  

Until then, I'll have lots of water and avoid loud noises.

kay.

Lets get a few thingss settled.  I got a haircut.  It's nicer, 'bout shoulder length and stuff.  Work's good.  Nice night, tomorrow iss.......

FUCK.

I need a date just about as much s I need to be termindated. 

terminated.  I'm on it.  (it's never smooth sailing.  it's never even sailing here. goddamnit)

BY THE WAY THE WEATHER SU--

is not to my liking.  Capt. Morgan will keep me warm, good guy e is

So bored!  They're not even showing much on the news right now.  Things are just going the way they should, I suppose, but I'm more used to the chaos of life at sea, where everything changes at the at the whim of the water. 

Blue.

And you know who had blue eyes?  My sister.  She would've gotten used to life here quicker than I did; the girl tries to be feisty but she's so malleable and kind.  She would've gotten scared and clung to me, and I coulda been a hero for her.  I was always the strong one, but she has a better heart.  While she had grace, I just had panache.  Empathy versus wits.  She's a good person.  A better person than me. 

I'm just a sea dog.  A shark, who can't stop swimming, swimming swimming. 

I oughta swim out to the grocery store; pick up some vegetables.  How mundane.  I used to be dangerous!!

At least I can get a good drink around here, without waiting to come into port. 

I can't help it.  I am a man of my word, and when I agreed to work here, even if it was not on terms I chose, I gave my word that I would do my best at it.  or else be terminated  Bossing around and empowering kids is a lot like leading a crew...you just gotta keep 'em on their goal, or they won't get through all the hard work necessary to attain that goal.   Thus far, work has been pretty uneventful.  Maybe that'll change!  Maybe something will change!!

Maybe I'll go home?  Please? On good behavior? 

The people hereabouts are all right.  Even though there's a big murder trial going on right now, I think this place is pretty safe.  The trial is riveting, but I think that's because there's not much else to do around here; no strife, no war -- so ya gotta make a big fuss over something.  Eh, I'll keep watchin'.

Kids.  I've got to be the best guidance counselor ever!!!! If I'm not, they'll kill me.  Heh. Heh.  I'm a great role-model if you're lookin' to steal ships and ransom princesses...not that there's anything wrong with that.  I'm not just sure I've enough experience for everyone. 

I'm much too sober right now.  I've to find a bar tonight.  They have those here too, right?

Oh let there be a merciful god among madmen.  Please.  Let there be a bar.

Liquor here is the same at least.  I don't like it here, and I want to contact Lenna, so she doesn't worry. 

Fellow prisoners.  They seem less miserable.  Ugh.